So! R week. I’m not going to be talking about stationery this week (shock horror I know). Nope, today it’s rest and relaxation. (Actually… More likely a rant.)
Ugh. Both are things that I need right now. Y’know, just a little break from the same scenery. And, I’d like some more human contact other than my boyfriend (and everyone else in this house). Don’t get me wrong, I love my boyfriend very much but I would like some other people to socialise with.
I know I don’t exactly do very much either but it’s still very… Tiring and a tad boring living my life. It’s hard work living here – always trying hard but never succeeding, just generally sucking at everything and breaking every rule that I didn’t even know I had to follow; rules I didn’t even know existed because nobody bothered to tell me about them! And, in addition to that, having to deal with a women who overreacts to/over every tiny thing, including tubes of toothpaste!
I know, I know; it could be a lot worse, so much worse, but right now, I can’t see how. My life feels freaking awful. No as bad as some people’s lives but… To quote a good friend:-
“There’s no comparison when it comes to life being shitty. We’re all in the same boat, no one swims.”
Fairly accurate I feel.
So yeah, I need a break, a holiday; -something- away from here. Please. I really need a break from here to relax and not feel like I’m doing anything, something, wrong every thirty seconds, or something like that.
Normally, to relax, I’d take a nap (somewhat frowned up on unless you’re ill. And even then, still somewhat frowned upon) or I would read (nowhere in my room is comfortable enough to sit for ages – I have no headboard on my bed to lean against and I can’t sit in my desk chair because I like to curl up to read.) Failing that, I’d play a game but… That doesn’t work at the moment either. As for writing? Pffft! Don’t even go there. I think I’m losing it again, which fills my heart and brain with utter, utter dread. I mean, if I lose it, what the hell am I going to do with all the notebooks, pens, ink and paper I have? D:
But yeah… I’m tired of my life as it is, and there’s currently nothing I can do, nothing that’s it my power, that I can do to change any of it. Things just aren’t working out for me at the moment and I don’t foresee it getting any better at any time in the near future.
Sorry for the downer guys; but I needed some time to vent and I really couldn’t think of a stationery product beginning with R except Rhodia (which is the most delicious paper by the way) and I certainly couldn’t think of enough material to write a whole post on it. Once again, I’m sorry folks. Back to normal next week though, hopefully.
Until next week!
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